Not Couse her is pretty,
not that, I remember it when I’m in wheels chair, I always wait her behind the
window of my boarding house, at the morning when she’s come with a food before
she get to work and in the afternoon after she’s going home from her office, I
can’t forget it that moment!, sometimes when I wait her, I make a tears, I don’t
know just can’t stop my tears to falling down until she’s came.
I know I’m badly miss my familie when that time especially
my little brother “agil”, when that time, I’m felt want to end my life, but I always
remember that kid, my special kid…I can be strong couse of him, so I try to
survive…n that moment I promise to my self want tobe somewant who being
neccessery for the other…
I had know it, I’m wrong to have fealling like this so
much, because not the situation… we are not leave in the cheap cinema that when
the ending we have to know, before finish we watch it. This is a real world not
fake…!!! But I want her, I want take care of her, I want make her proud of me
beside my family surely, to many things had we been troughly and make me know
each other more, but is in enough for us being couple…?
I know my self is activist even doesn’t have
organization, but my life like this, if she have good strength enough leave
like this?, I’m far from the happiness live, like human being, I can be happy
if people I see can smile, I like being necessary by the people, hahahaha so naïf
there are my idealism or so pathetic… but that’s I’m…
I swear a God I love you very much, I want merry you, I always
pray in my last Sujud to have meery with you bun,…
you
know what when we make a deal who’s come 1st to immortal live, and we play it I’m come 1st
… I thanks to God hope being real, I REALLY DON’T WANT LOOK AT YOU WITH THAT
MORIN…I’m not stronger like that to stand up and play tough guy…ya we always
talk about that…hahahaha a deadness can be beautiful when we always talk about
that with smile…..(hope Allah will united’s us).
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Purwokerto.
23-12-2012
Ayah
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